Saturday, August 30, 2003
Today (yesterday I suppose, but it's still "today" to me :P ) was...interesting. The morning was pretty normal, the good kind of normal. During creative writing though, we were reading our classmates' poems that were due that day, and one of them...urgh. It set me off in flashback mode for a minute, which wasn't fun at all. I didn't want to show it though...so I just went on to the next poem and tried not to think about it. There's just something about being alone though...on the way to band, the panic started to set in again, and it moved quickly to the point where I couldn't breathe properly. I felt shaky and by the time I got to band I was getting a little dizzy - from overthought or lack of oxygen, I'm not sure...maybe a combination. Anyway, I went to my band locker to get my clarinet out and just colapsed there for a minute, closed my eyes, and took a few deep breaths...and I was okay for the moment, mostly because I was distracted by the realization that we had a test. After the test was over I started getting shaky again though...so I went to the bathroom and forced myself to stop thinking about things. After that I was ok for the rest of the day, as far as that goes. That was just kinda odd though...
We went to the second half of the football game tonight (last night's got cut short because of lightning) and I had lots of fun. I had some fellow non-football-lovers with me this time so I didn't even have to pretend to watch the game! Hehe. Megan played with my hair, and Anna's, and Anna did Nicoles...much fun. Then we went back to my house for a while and just hung out, which was nice...I had some time to lay with Matt, which doesn't happen too often lately...and much massive cuddling! I was in a really cuddly mood tonight, so that was much fun! hehe...I think our largest cuddle group of the night was Corey and Anna on one side of me, Anna against my chest and Corey's head in my lap, Steven on my other side with Katie using him as a pillow. And then there were random moments of Dave and Megan entering the pile, and them and others running off to talk to James, who was on the phone from the beach...hurray for giant cuddling groups! :-)
A few confusing things...can't really say much here...one of them I'm not really sure what to do about because there will never be an agreement on it...annother, something I think can be postponed for a while (because the timing now would be really sucky), and possibly might be nothing afterall. We'll see.
I'm getting really tired and hardly anyone is still online, so I think I'm going to read Anna's blog and then go to bed...hmm, still in a cuddly mood even though its almost 12:30...but that's what stuffed animals are for! :-D G'night everyone!
We went to the second half of the football game tonight (last night's got cut short because of lightning) and I had lots of fun. I had some fellow non-football-lovers with me this time so I didn't even have to pretend to watch the game! Hehe. Megan played with my hair, and Anna's, and Anna did Nicoles...much fun. Then we went back to my house for a while and just hung out, which was nice...I had some time to lay with Matt, which doesn't happen too often lately...and much massive cuddling! I was in a really cuddly mood tonight, so that was much fun! hehe...I think our largest cuddle group of the night was Corey and Anna on one side of me, Anna against my chest and Corey's head in my lap, Steven on my other side with Katie using him as a pillow. And then there were random moments of Dave and Megan entering the pile, and them and others running off to talk to James, who was on the phone from the beach...hurray for giant cuddling groups! :-)
A few confusing things...can't really say much here...one of them I'm not really sure what to do about because there will never be an agreement on it...annother, something I think can be postponed for a while (because the timing now would be really sucky), and possibly might be nothing afterall. We'll see.
I'm getting really tired and hardly anyone is still online, so I think I'm going to read Anna's blog and then go to bed...hmm, still in a cuddly mood even though its almost 12:30...but that's what stuffed animals are for! :-D G'night everyone!
