Friday, January 16, 2004
***note: I started writing this yesterday...I’m going back and trying to change it so the days make sense, but if I miss some, ignore me please...***
Blah...I’ve been debating between blogging and not blogging the last few nights...But now I’m actually going to.
Ok...so after the early-ended school day on Friday, we had a gathering at my house...which was much fun...and Dave and/or Matt fixed my DDR so it’ll actually save what I do now, which my brother had programed it not to do...After a while of DDR, we got to watch...dundundun....BEDKNOBS AND BROOMSTICKS! Omg, I’d only seen it once before then, but Rachel brought it...It’s the source of several inside jokes between the two of us, along with much entertainment...If you haven’t seen it, you should...It’s one of those really old Disney movies with real people, although there’s a part where they’re in a cartoon world...much fun. BUNNY! *giggles* Oh, and lots of people (mostly the guy) were going crazy when they sang...but it’s incredibly amusing to me for some reason.
Saturday...I don’t remember what I did during the day...but Corey came over that night^^ which was great as always <3<3<3 Oh, by the way, incase anyone’s currious about the reason people laugh when they’re tickled, it’s because a clown-eating monster breathes on them, and his breath is really funny because of all those clowns he ate...*giggles* yay randomness! Anyway, we watched Top Gun...which I found out we had on video...but it’s a recorded tape from when it was on TV...Now that may sound pretty normal, but what’s crazy is that we taped it in 1992! When I still lived in Arizona! And you know how Corey and I figured out the year? IT HAD THE PRESIDENTIAL ELECTION RESULT UPDATES GOING ACROSS THE SCREEN! Between Bush Sr. and Clinton! That was SOOOOO weird to see...haha and we reminissed-reminiced-remanised-HOWEVER YOU SPELL THAT WORD-o Dena just told me *hugs Dena and keeps my bad spellings for pure amusement* REMINISCED-about old comercials, like the Double Mint Gum one and Big Red and a bunch of others...And we had a wonderful time^^ even though it was over waaaaay too soon... O:-) I so have my mom believing I payed attention to that movie...O:-)
Sunday we went back to youth for the first time since the Sunday before Thanksgiving for most people, the week before that for me since I was in Lenior with Corey and his family...And we even got Zach to come with us, which was surprising...Lol, I could tell he was trying to restrain himself from saying some things, though I caught a few muttered words...It was nice to be back in the church though...I’d missed youth. We talked a little bit about how we should do what God wants us to do...which sort of contradicts what I went through a good while ago...pychology stuff...yet over the last few days it’s had me thinking again, sort of...not about psychology, but in general...
I was starting to get a little stressed from school work...especially math...It’s not hard, but we have SO much work! Just this week, we had a quiz Monday, a test Tuesday, another quiz yesterday, and we had another quiz today! (***just changed those days and must update w/this***: I have a B in math *dies* I haven’t had a B in math since 6th grade, and then it was just because we had a ton of notebook checks and I did awful on them because I’m not organized lol. Argh, I was in SUCH a bad mood when I figured that out today...I thought I’d done really well on the test Tuesday, but we got it back today...I’m so mad at myself...I UNDERSTAND the stuff, I know how to do it! I just make stupid errors...one of the problems I missed is just because I said 12-1 is 13. Litterally EVERY problem I missed with the exception of the bonus was due to a stupid basic math error *falls over* So while I freaked after seeing that grade and starting adding up my average, I forgot to look over this one thing that was on our quiz today, and it’s something we went over in class really fast yesterday but barely even applied it in examples or anything...and it wasn’t on the homework...so I completely forgot what one of the symbols stood for. I remembed the U and upside down U from last year, but the sideways one left my mind completely blank...Bah. And since there were several questions on that, and the quiz was pretty short (under 10 questions I think, I can’t remember exactly how many) I know I did awful on it. So I was in a BAD MOOD in band...but I have wonderful friends who make me laugh and then I felt much better :-D Must do really good on test next Wednesday though.) Plus random nights where we get a ton of homework...which she takes up for a correctness grade...the other night we litterally had 90 problems, including definitions, 2 worksheets, and bookwork. *glares at teacher* Anyway, about the stressing part though...I basically just made up my mind that I’m not allowed to stress this semester. I don’t mean like I can’t show it, I mean I can’t feel it either. I’m taking a very different view than I normally do...more of a matter of fact “This is what I have to do for homework and this is what I need to study” view...instead of worrying...even with this math grade stuff, I’m more determined to fix it than actually worried or stressed about it, besides being annoyed with myself for doing stupid errors...and I’m making it very one step at a time-ish...and I figure if I continue with that attitude, I’ll be able to keep up with my grades so in the end it’ll be worth it. That sort of ties into the part about doing what God wants, in a way...I remember a while back, Anna and I had a discussion about how God wants us to be happy...and I know psychology made me miserable a lot of the time, so I’m still glad I gave it up...but I’m starting to see other things I can do instead. When someone’s stressing or unhappy about something, even if I don’t “council” them like I used to, why can’t I do other things to help out, lighten their load a little so to speak? Like the other night...Corey had a ton of stuff to do and I hate seeing him stressed and everything...And I knew he had a math test the next day and he took the German Exam thingie during the time his class went over one of the lessons...So I looked through it and worked through some problems that night and tried to explain what I was doing to solve them, and gave it to him the next day...Honestly I have no idea if he even had time to look over it before the test, but I felt better because I’d at least TRIED to help with something, even if it was something really tiny like that. *shrugs* I don’t really know what else to do for people, but I hate sitting around doing nothing when they’re overwhelmed with something.
Last night I went to an informational meeting at the church about Godspell, a musical play thing they’re going to put on...I don’t want to act, I don’t like acting anymore, despite my love of the plays I did in elementary schools, but I’d like to work on another part of it...There’s going to be a band, and they’re looking for all instruments to come play in it...If I do that, I’d go for clarinet even though it’s kind of weird, because I doubt I could play something too hard on piano...but I’m seriously considering auditioning for the choir. Ever since I was in elementary school I’ve wanted to do chorus, but band or a required elective always got in the way (*sticks tounge out at magnet elementary school with all those required electives, and at middle school for the computer elective and having band at the same time as chorus, and high school for also having band the same time (last year anyway) and not having enough class spaces for me to do both)...So if this is like my only chance to do some singing besides working with Rachel and Jill (not to be offensive to you guys, it’s just we haven’t had a rehersal in months! lol) I’d like to take it...which is going to mean some time commitment, but I think I can do it...The tough part is auditions! I need to pick a song and start working on it this weekend (a long one luckily) since tryouts are Thursday...I hope they have a big choir so I don’t have to worry about it too much, no idea how many of the people at the meeting wanted to be in the choir part...Jenny isn’t sure what she’s doing yet I think, but I know she’ll make it if she tries out for the choir, and I bet Meredith will too, if she doesn’t try out for one of the characters that is. I don’t know about anyone else’s voice though...I knew those two sing and the one guy that’s a singer in the youth band...Actually that’s about all the people I knew at the meeting lol, except Melissa, but she just wants to be in the band. Anyway...no matter what happens, I’m pretty excited about this...If I don’t get in the choir I’ll probably end up with the band, or doing some behind the scenes work...I’d love to do some more set design like I did last year for the school...It was so much fun...but they said there isn’t going to be a very elaborate set, and they’re not sure what the setting is yet, so I’m not sure how much there’d be to do on that. Weeeee...so now I have to pick a song! Sugestions welcome...Mom wants me to do Angel (Sarah Mclaughlin) but I’ve heard so many different versions of it that I can’t sing along to the cd without being a little off from her since she changes the rhythm and such a little bit each time I’ve heard it...which means I’d have to do it accapella (sp? it means without music for the people blinking at their computer screen right now...) and I’m not sure if I’d be able to do that or not...The Hand Song that Jenny did for youth last year is really pretty, and I’d love to do that, but I’m not sure if it has enough...energy? something like that...in it...I mean, it’s emotional...but I dunno...same with “Could Not Ask for More” until it gets to the bridge, which is like halfway through the song, and they’d probably cut me off by then...That’s the Way it Is was another thought, but I have to drop down an octave when it changes keys at the end, and I bet it sounds funny like that...*rambles* *shuts up to cease intense bordom of entry*
Weeeeeee! I know it sounds like I’m taking on a lot, with all the school work and everything...and still being clueless in dance...but somehow I really really want to do everything...and I swear I’m not stressing! Hehe...I started making a scarf (crocheting it) because Megan’s knitting made me feel like it...So I followed her advice of making it double wide so it can be folded over...and it’s getting pretty long already...and prettyfull hehe...and since crocheting is often a stress reliever to me, I think doing so much of it lately is almost keeping me from stressing...I dunno, it’s my random theory...*hyper*
IT’S A THREE DAY WEEKEND! I have no idea what I’m going to be doing, but I’m glad it’s one anyway...even though Corey’s out of town (waaaay out of town lol-Minnesota!) so I’m going to miss him tons <3<3<3, but I’m happy that because going to get to see a friend he hasn’t seen in years, so I’m sure he’ll have a great time ^^ It makes me think I should prod Mahitha this weekend...I haven’t talked to or seen her since halfway through December! And that was just the phone for like 45 minutes and seeing her for like 5 minutes...*hopes I don’t have to clean all weekend so I get to maybe see her*....argh unless this is the weekend with he dance thing...aaah I think it might be...Maybe not Monday though...We’ll see. Anyway, going to a gathering at Matt’s tonight...So now I’m going to post this and maybe do some homework or something to get it out of the way...except I doubt I will because I’m entirely too hyper (no idea why either, seriously, not the greatist day and no real reason to be insane...but I am! :-D ) to work on math or science or read for english haha...weeeeee! Bye!
Blah...I’ve been debating between blogging and not blogging the last few nights...But now I’m actually going to.
Ok...so after the early-ended school day on Friday, we had a gathering at my house...which was much fun...and Dave and/or Matt fixed my DDR so it’ll actually save what I do now, which my brother had programed it not to do...After a while of DDR, we got to watch...dundundun....BEDKNOBS AND BROOMSTICKS! Omg, I’d only seen it once before then, but Rachel brought it...It’s the source of several inside jokes between the two of us, along with much entertainment...If you haven’t seen it, you should...It’s one of those really old Disney movies with real people, although there’s a part where they’re in a cartoon world...much fun. BUNNY! *giggles* Oh, and lots of people (mostly the guy) were going crazy when they sang...but it’s incredibly amusing to me for some reason.
Saturday...I don’t remember what I did during the day...but Corey came over that night^^ which was great as always <3<3<3 Oh, by the way, incase anyone’s currious about the reason people laugh when they’re tickled, it’s because a clown-eating monster breathes on them, and his breath is really funny because of all those clowns he ate...*giggles* yay randomness! Anyway, we watched Top Gun...which I found out we had on video...but it’s a recorded tape from when it was on TV...Now that may sound pretty normal, but what’s crazy is that we taped it in 1992! When I still lived in Arizona! And you know how Corey and I figured out the year? IT HAD THE PRESIDENTIAL ELECTION RESULT UPDATES GOING ACROSS THE SCREEN! Between Bush Sr. and Clinton! That was SOOOOO weird to see...haha and we reminissed-reminiced-remanised-HOWEVER YOU SPELL THAT WORD-o Dena just told me *hugs Dena and keeps my bad spellings for pure amusement* REMINISCED-about old comercials, like the Double Mint Gum one and Big Red and a bunch of others...And we had a wonderful time^^ even though it was over waaaaay too soon... O:-) I so have my mom believing I payed attention to that movie...O:-)
Sunday we went back to youth for the first time since the Sunday before Thanksgiving for most people, the week before that for me since I was in Lenior with Corey and his family...And we even got Zach to come with us, which was surprising...Lol, I could tell he was trying to restrain himself from saying some things, though I caught a few muttered words...It was nice to be back in the church though...I’d missed youth. We talked a little bit about how we should do what God wants us to do...which sort of contradicts what I went through a good while ago...pychology stuff...yet over the last few days it’s had me thinking again, sort of...not about psychology, but in general...
I was starting to get a little stressed from school work...especially math...It’s not hard, but we have SO much work! Just this week, we had a quiz Monday, a test Tuesday, another quiz yesterday, and we had another quiz today! (***just changed those days and must update w/this***: I have a B in math *dies* I haven’t had a B in math since 6th grade, and then it was just because we had a ton of notebook checks and I did awful on them because I’m not organized lol. Argh, I was in SUCH a bad mood when I figured that out today...I thought I’d done really well on the test Tuesday, but we got it back today...I’m so mad at myself...I UNDERSTAND the stuff, I know how to do it! I just make stupid errors...one of the problems I missed is just because I said 12-1 is 13. Litterally EVERY problem I missed with the exception of the bonus was due to a stupid basic math error *falls over* So while I freaked after seeing that grade and starting adding up my average, I forgot to look over this one thing that was on our quiz today, and it’s something we went over in class really fast yesterday but barely even applied it in examples or anything...and it wasn’t on the homework...so I completely forgot what one of the symbols stood for. I remembed the U and upside down U from last year, but the sideways one left my mind completely blank...Bah. And since there were several questions on that, and the quiz was pretty short (under 10 questions I think, I can’t remember exactly how many) I know I did awful on it. So I was in a BAD MOOD in band...but I have wonderful friends who make me laugh and then I felt much better :-D Must do really good on test next Wednesday though.) Plus random nights where we get a ton of homework...which she takes up for a correctness grade...the other night we litterally had 90 problems, including definitions, 2 worksheets, and bookwork. *glares at teacher* Anyway, about the stressing part though...I basically just made up my mind that I’m not allowed to stress this semester. I don’t mean like I can’t show it, I mean I can’t feel it either. I’m taking a very different view than I normally do...more of a matter of fact “This is what I have to do for homework and this is what I need to study” view...instead of worrying...even with this math grade stuff, I’m more determined to fix it than actually worried or stressed about it, besides being annoyed with myself for doing stupid errors...and I’m making it very one step at a time-ish...and I figure if I continue with that attitude, I’ll be able to keep up with my grades so in the end it’ll be worth it. That sort of ties into the part about doing what God wants, in a way...I remember a while back, Anna and I had a discussion about how God wants us to be happy...and I know psychology made me miserable a lot of the time, so I’m still glad I gave it up...but I’m starting to see other things I can do instead. When someone’s stressing or unhappy about something, even if I don’t “council” them like I used to, why can’t I do other things to help out, lighten their load a little so to speak? Like the other night...Corey had a ton of stuff to do and I hate seeing him stressed and everything...And I knew he had a math test the next day and he took the German Exam thingie during the time his class went over one of the lessons...So I looked through it and worked through some problems that night and tried to explain what I was doing to solve them, and gave it to him the next day...Honestly I have no idea if he even had time to look over it before the test, but I felt better because I’d at least TRIED to help with something, even if it was something really tiny like that. *shrugs* I don’t really know what else to do for people, but I hate sitting around doing nothing when they’re overwhelmed with something.
Last night I went to an informational meeting at the church about Godspell, a musical play thing they’re going to put on...I don’t want to act, I don’t like acting anymore, despite my love of the plays I did in elementary schools, but I’d like to work on another part of it...There’s going to be a band, and they’re looking for all instruments to come play in it...If I do that, I’d go for clarinet even though it’s kind of weird, because I doubt I could play something too hard on piano...but I’m seriously considering auditioning for the choir. Ever since I was in elementary school I’ve wanted to do chorus, but band or a required elective always got in the way (*sticks tounge out at magnet elementary school with all those required electives, and at middle school for the computer elective and having band at the same time as chorus, and high school for also having band the same time (last year anyway) and not having enough class spaces for me to do both)...So if this is like my only chance to do some singing besides working with Rachel and Jill (not to be offensive to you guys, it’s just we haven’t had a rehersal in months! lol) I’d like to take it...which is going to mean some time commitment, but I think I can do it...The tough part is auditions! I need to pick a song and start working on it this weekend (a long one luckily) since tryouts are Thursday...I hope they have a big choir so I don’t have to worry about it too much, no idea how many of the people at the meeting wanted to be in the choir part...Jenny isn’t sure what she’s doing yet I think, but I know she’ll make it if she tries out for the choir, and I bet Meredith will too, if she doesn’t try out for one of the characters that is. I don’t know about anyone else’s voice though...I knew those two sing and the one guy that’s a singer in the youth band...Actually that’s about all the people I knew at the meeting lol, except Melissa, but she just wants to be in the band. Anyway...no matter what happens, I’m pretty excited about this...If I don’t get in the choir I’ll probably end up with the band, or doing some behind the scenes work...I’d love to do some more set design like I did last year for the school...It was so much fun...but they said there isn’t going to be a very elaborate set, and they’re not sure what the setting is yet, so I’m not sure how much there’d be to do on that. Weeeee...so now I have to pick a song! Sugestions welcome...Mom wants me to do Angel (Sarah Mclaughlin) but I’ve heard so many different versions of it that I can’t sing along to the cd without being a little off from her since she changes the rhythm and such a little bit each time I’ve heard it...which means I’d have to do it accapella (sp? it means without music for the people blinking at their computer screen right now...) and I’m not sure if I’d be able to do that or not...The Hand Song that Jenny did for youth last year is really pretty, and I’d love to do that, but I’m not sure if it has enough...energy? something like that...in it...I mean, it’s emotional...but I dunno...same with “Could Not Ask for More” until it gets to the bridge, which is like halfway through the song, and they’d probably cut me off by then...That’s the Way it Is was another thought, but I have to drop down an octave when it changes keys at the end, and I bet it sounds funny like that...*rambles* *shuts up to cease intense bordom of entry*
Weeeeeee! I know it sounds like I’m taking on a lot, with all the school work and everything...and still being clueless in dance...but somehow I really really want to do everything...and I swear I’m not stressing! Hehe...I started making a scarf (crocheting it) because Megan’s knitting made me feel like it...So I followed her advice of making it double wide so it can be folded over...and it’s getting pretty long already...and prettyfull hehe...and since crocheting is often a stress reliever to me, I think doing so much of it lately is almost keeping me from stressing...I dunno, it’s my random theory...*hyper*
IT’S A THREE DAY WEEKEND! I have no idea what I’m going to be doing, but I’m glad it’s one anyway...even though Corey’s out of town (waaaay out of town lol-Minnesota!) so I’m going to miss him tons <3<3<3, but I’m happy that because going to get to see a friend he hasn’t seen in years, so I’m sure he’ll have a great time ^^ It makes me think I should prod Mahitha this weekend...I haven’t talked to or seen her since halfway through December! And that was just the phone for like 45 minutes and seeing her for like 5 minutes...*hopes I don’t have to clean all weekend so I get to maybe see her*....argh unless this is the weekend with he dance thing...aaah I think it might be...Maybe not Monday though...We’ll see. Anyway, going to a gathering at Matt’s tonight...So now I’m going to post this and maybe do some homework or something to get it out of the way...except I doubt I will because I’m entirely too hyper (no idea why either, seriously, not the greatist day and no real reason to be insane...but I am! :-D ) to work on math or science or read for english haha...weeeeee! Bye!
