Jens Blog :-)

Ok I really should make this a short blog (well really I shouldn't be blogging at all...) because I've got a ton of stuff to do, but I'm having a random blog-craving...so this may sound kinda rushed lol, but hey, what isn't nowadays? Quick summary...Monday night completely sucked with tons of visions and flashbacks and things...including a new one that scared me more than I think any of the others had before...which got me to the point of not being able to close my eyes for fear of seeing it again. So I was up for a good while...I think that's the first time in months I've actually cried myself to sleep. I was being stupid and letting worry get the best of me, and then letting myself be worried about being worried. I should know better than that by now. I obviously didn't get a lot of sleep that night...so I was pretty out of it Tuesday. Luckily we got out early...so I got some work done on my speech for English...Wednesday we had a two hour delay...and I had a English test that wasn't too bad, and a math quiz...and I got to feel very proud of myself for proving Starret wrong in an argument about the stomach flu by using biconditionals from geometry hahaha. I swear, the last few days I think I've become the part of a math teacher...from the thing with Starret to when Mom said something about how we should do like the year-round schools do and use Saturdays as makeup days since they only have to go for half of a day. I pointed out how much class time we'd be losing, especially since we're on block scheduling already, and I received a look that plainly said "Who are you and what have you done with my teenage daughter???" hahahaha...Oh and then in dance Wednesday night, I attempted to use logic to explain to my class why the formation looked stupid (which none of them would listen to and the teacher didn't understand the concept of "If one person stands behind another person and they do the exact same thing, they'll end up with one person behind another person again") and a really easy way to fix it that only Kayley and I seemed to care about...I swear I have never been told in my life "oh it doesn't really matter" for something like that...Especially when I asked which foot we're on for this one step and the teacher said it didn't matter...I was like in shock haha...Today...not much happened...We changed seats in Earth Science (*sad face* so I'm not with my cool lab-partners anymore, nor did I end up near the other two people in the class that I know) but oh well...and then we took a test that wasn't too bad aside from the fact that I hardly studied lol...Tomorrow we have a practice writing test thing in an extended first period...and I have a math quiz...and then to Anna's birthday party :-D Saturday we'll have a huge group of people at the movies; that day's going to be nice and hectic...Sunday, Godspell followed by the senior citizen dinner thing at the church...Monday I have a math test that I think I have to have a 101 on to bring my grade back to an A, Tuesday a world civ test, Wednesday my speech is due and we'll probably have a math quiz, Thursday probably another math quiz, Friday my Earth Science project (only assigned today) is due and we'll probably have a math quiz. So I'm a little bit stress-ish, but I'm fighting it so it's all good. Oh and I figured out unless I get like a HUGE HUGE HUGE scholarship or a few of them combined, there's basically no way I can go to a private college; it's even more expensive than I thought >< *dies and works harder and needs to join clubs next year*

I heard this song on the radio the other morning and managed to catch enough lyrics to look it up later...It's a country song but it's nice...and it's kinda inspiring so I'll paste the lyrics:

Bring On The Rain by Jo Dee Messina

Another day has almost come and gone 
Can't imagine what else could go wrong 
Sometimes I'd like to hideaway somewhere and lock the door 
A single battle lost but not the war 
`cause 

Tomorrow's another day 
And I'm thirsty anyway 
So bring on the rain 

It's almost like the hard times circle round 
A couple drops and they all start comin' down 
Yeah, I might feel defeated 
I might hang my head 
I might be barely breathing but I'm not dead 

Tomorrow's another day 
And I'm thirsty anyway 
So bring on the rain 

I'm not gonna let it get me down 
I'm not gonna cry 
And I'm not gonna lose any sleep tonight 

Cause tomorrow's another day 
And I am not afraid 
So bring on the rain 

Tomorrows another day 
And I'm thirsty anyway 
So bring on the rain

That's about it for tonight...byeeeee!