Sunday, March 21, 2004
I started an entry last night but then I had to go to bed and it was only about a sentence long so I'm just starting over lol...b/c Marc's probably going to yell at me if I don't update.
My brain is currently about half dead and I'm not in the greatist mood so this isn't going to be insanely detailed because I can't remember much of the last week lol. Urm...well I've been really dizzy lately and so I went to the doctor, expecting her to say I was anemic since I've been close to that before...but they ran some blood tests...and I'm not anemic or any of the other things they tested for. The doctor also did some heart beat and blood pressure tests that I apparently defy logic on...because by heart beat changes from sitting to standing, I apparently could have this thing that basically means I have to drink a bunch more water, but my blood pressure changes in different positions say I don't. So then I got to go to the hospital and have an EKG done to test for heart murmers and such...We've only gotten the primary results back on that, which say everything's fine, but apparently the doctor hasn't measured something yet because she doesn't have the actual papers for it...and we thought she'd call back Friday but she hasn't yet. So this week I've continued my dizzy streak, which makes it really hard to concentrate in class, and I haven't played in band...though one day we had a crazy sub anyway, omg she was yelling at people for stupid things like when Torey had a hairbrush out...Anyway...I don't like not knowing what's wrong with me. I had my head down for a while during one of the Godspell rehersals and some people started asking me what was wrong...so I kinda explained...and this one girls first reaction was to ask if they checked for a heart murmer because her sister has one and she had the same symptoms...and the last few days I've had a little bit of chest pain too, but it's been on the right side so that doesn't make sense. Wow I'm jumping around all over the place in this entry. Oh well.
We had Godspell rehersals all this weekend...litterally...Friday night, Saturday afternoon, we performed for all three church services this morning as a preview, and I leave in about an hour for another rehersal...which means I have to miss youth. That's really the reason I'm in a bad mood right now...I haven't gotten to see my friends at all this weekend, except for like 2 minutes with Anna before one of the performances this morning. I mean, I love my Godspell friends, but it's not the same...and I miss Corey crazily ("corazily" hehe) and I don't get to see him tonight like I thought I would. I miss everyone...especially now...I'm usually not this friend-desperate after just a day or two without people but I think worrying about whatevers making me dizzy is making me really need a hug...lots of them...not knowing what's going on is really scaring me. I sound so pathetic right now and I hate that. Rawr on my lack of evilness (and yeah, only Anna will get that so the rest of you can ignore it lol). Much love to everyone.
My brain is currently about half dead and I'm not in the greatist mood so this isn't going to be insanely detailed because I can't remember much of the last week lol. Urm...well I've been really dizzy lately and so I went to the doctor, expecting her to say I was anemic since I've been close to that before...but they ran some blood tests...and I'm not anemic or any of the other things they tested for. The doctor also did some heart beat and blood pressure tests that I apparently defy logic on...because by heart beat changes from sitting to standing, I apparently could have this thing that basically means I have to drink a bunch more water, but my blood pressure changes in different positions say I don't. So then I got to go to the hospital and have an EKG done to test for heart murmers and such...We've only gotten the primary results back on that, which say everything's fine, but apparently the doctor hasn't measured something yet because she doesn't have the actual papers for it...and we thought she'd call back Friday but she hasn't yet. So this week I've continued my dizzy streak, which makes it really hard to concentrate in class, and I haven't played in band...though one day we had a crazy sub anyway, omg she was yelling at people for stupid things like when Torey had a hairbrush out...Anyway...I don't like not knowing what's wrong with me. I had my head down for a while during one of the Godspell rehersals and some people started asking me what was wrong...so I kinda explained...and this one girls first reaction was to ask if they checked for a heart murmer because her sister has one and she had the same symptoms...and the last few days I've had a little bit of chest pain too, but it's been on the right side so that doesn't make sense. Wow I'm jumping around all over the place in this entry. Oh well.
We had Godspell rehersals all this weekend...litterally...Friday night, Saturday afternoon, we performed for all three church services this morning as a preview, and I leave in about an hour for another rehersal...which means I have to miss youth. That's really the reason I'm in a bad mood right now...I haven't gotten to see my friends at all this weekend, except for like 2 minutes with Anna before one of the performances this morning. I mean, I love my Godspell friends, but it's not the same...and I miss Corey crazily ("corazily" hehe) and I don't get to see him tonight like I thought I would. I miss everyone...especially now...I'm usually not this friend-desperate after just a day or two without people but I think worrying about whatevers making me dizzy is making me really need a hug...lots of them...not knowing what's going on is really scaring me. I sound so pathetic right now and I hate that. Rawr on my lack of evilness (and yeah, only Anna will get that so the rest of you can ignore it lol). Much love to everyone.
