Sunday, May 09, 2004
Hrm...I'm bored. I'm really tired too, but I don't feel like going to bed yet...and I have very little to say but I needed something to do so I decided to blog!
Let's see...Today...I worked a lot on a scrapbook I'm making for my friend that's moving back to India soon...It's almost done now. I just need a picture of the two of us together now (most of the pictures are from middle school) for the cover, and one to put at the end...which I have to credit Mom for her good idea: Mahitha gave me a giant catipillar stuffed animal (litterally, it's longer than I am!) that says "Best Friends For Ever Ever Ever Ever..." and the "ever"s continue for each little piece of the catipillar...so Mom's going to take a picture of me holding the catepillar so that the words on it can be read...and I'll put it on the page that I'm using for lots of "I'll miss you!" and "keep in touch!" stuff. It's going to be really hard to see her leave though...even though I've hardly gotten to see her this last year...I can't believe I'm going to see the 3rd Harry Potter movie without her. We've seen all of them together...discussed all the books for hours on end...when the 5th book came out, we finished within half an hour apart from eachother, immediately called eachother, and discussed it for several hours just that night, more following over the next few days. Not that we're only friends for sake of Harry Potter or anything, but we talk about it soooo much that anything Harry Potter related is going to feel really strange without her...along with many other things. I'm doing my world civ/english project (we have to pick a country to visit for 10 days) on India because I was supposed to go with her there the summer after 8th grade...unfortunately, most of the things we had planned don't really work with the project requirements, but a few do, so it'll be fun, despite making me miss her even more...especially when the main reason we became friends was this same project in 6th grade...except we went to another country and it's really bothering me that I can't remember where we went...but anyway, we were partners on that and got to know eachother through it. I'm going to miss having such an "innocent" friend around too...nothing against the others at all, but she's one of my few friends that hasn't been exposed to some of the things the rest of us have...and while it makes it a little harder to relate to eachother, it's nice to be around someone like that sometimes.
Anyway...between that and not having chocolate and my shoulder and neck and head and chest and legs and arms killing me, I've been a little cranky...especially today, since I think I'm in as much pain now as I was before I started the prescription medicine, and now my left arm really hurts again, when I thought that had gotten better. I'm bad enough around my friends, and I'm sorry guys, I know I've snapped at just about all of you lately for something that didn't deserve it...My family's gotten the worst part of it though...My parents are the kind of people you have to tell something several times for them to really get it or remember it sometimes...not something they can help, and I'm usually used to it, but it's bugging me lately, as is pretty much every other tiny detail...It's not like I'm unhappy about things, I'm just...cranky lol. I had to try hard to not blow up at Ashley the other day when she was complaining about how she wasn't allowed to drink soda because of some medicine she was taking...yet she sat there drinking a coke or something...and then got a really bad stomachache. I mean, it wasn't a smart idea, but it didn't mean she should've been lectured by me for it...though I think I decently contained myself. I talked to Matt a while last night and when he brought up a touchy subject...it made me glad that conversation was online. Let's just say I'm still not over the death paranoia.
Mom's going to make an orthopedist appointment for me soon...I want to find out if there's anything else I can do now or even anything later...You know, it'd be very interesting if it was possible for me to have the surgery earlier than we think I can, if I can even have it at all...because sometime in the near-ish future (like, within a year probably) I'm going to have to get my wisdom teeth out...because they're litterally growing in sideways lol; I saw the x-ray and it amused me...but yeah, my brother's did that too, and so do a lot of other people's, so it's not a big deal, but they need to be taken out...and if you've ever seen people for like a week or two after they get their wisdom teeth taken out...Let's just say, I earned the right to call my brother "chipmunk cheeks" for a while O:-) so I'm just trying to imagine myself with giant, puffy cheeks, and an arm...I guess in a sling or something...I don't really know what they'd need to do for it...depending exactly what they'd need to do for the surgery...because I guess if they had to replace part of the joint, they'd have to tear through muscle, but I can't imagine they'd put me in a cast for it because they'd probably want a lot of physical therapy done. I guess I'll find out though...It sounds icky either way, but I want the sugery unless there's another way to fix the problem...The idea of having problems caused by it for the rest of my life scares me a lot...Some math teacher I'd be if I randomly had to wear arm braces for a while, some mom I'd make if it hurt to pick up my kid, or even set him/her on my lap because my legs hurt.
I'm sorry for making some of you guys worried, but when I'm scared I talk about things a lot because I'd rather have them out in the open and have hugs from you guys...but feel free to tell me to shut up if I'm really bothering you when I start talking about things. I love every one of you sooooo much, and I'm sorry for everytime I've yelled at any of you, especially lately...and I'll give you fair warning; it might be a while before I get back to not being so cranky...but sometimes I do it without realizing it, so feel free to tell me I'm being cranky lol, maybe it'll make me stop and think for a second rather than jumping into an argument so easily.
You know...I really want my SAT scores back. I can get them online this Friday... *sits and waits* They don't get mailed until the 24th but apparently u can get them the 14th online for free or on the phone for $8...I've also noticed that I've been really impatient lately lol. (hrm...maybe that's why I miss Corey so much? nah...I always miss him "corazily" hehe <3<3<3) Yay internet^^
I've discovered that sometimes I can learn concepts of Algebra during math quizzes...luckily. Lol I've hardly been able to pay attention in there lately...I'm either almost falling asleep or hurt enough that it's hard to concentrate, or both...Lol the other day my head kept nodding forward and my neck would get a nice stabbing pain that'd wake me up. Anyway...I'm going to try to figure out the stuff we've done this week since I have a test on Wednesday...but I can get a 68.25 or higher and still have a 92.5 without adding the points from the compency test...which we still haven't gotten back (there goes the impatient-ness again...) so I figure I'll live. Too many formulas >< Give me a word problem any day so I can create my own equation...wow I bet I'm one of few people that would say that. Then again, I loved geometry, so go figure.
Tomorrow is mothers day...and the Survivor season finale...so I'm not going to be on after 8 tomorrow lol. Believe it or not, I'm kinda hoping Rob or Amber will win...as cool as Rupert is, Rob and Amber have played the game a lot better (despite the whole "let me make out with you so you won't vote for me" thing hahaha to Anna's profile)...and I'm really currious to see what the "big surprise" is because there's supposed to be something really crazy that happens that no one knows about ahead of time...watch it be like two people get the million dollars...
*yawns* Well, I decided I'd go to bed by 12:30 tonight...and since it's 12:52 maybe I should actually go. G'night!
Let's see...Today...I worked a lot on a scrapbook I'm making for my friend that's moving back to India soon...It's almost done now. I just need a picture of the two of us together now (most of the pictures are from middle school) for the cover, and one to put at the end...which I have to credit Mom for her good idea: Mahitha gave me a giant catipillar stuffed animal (litterally, it's longer than I am!) that says "Best Friends For Ever Ever Ever Ever..." and the "ever"s continue for each little piece of the catipillar...so Mom's going to take a picture of me holding the catepillar so that the words on it can be read...and I'll put it on the page that I'm using for lots of "I'll miss you!" and "keep in touch!" stuff. It's going to be really hard to see her leave though...even though I've hardly gotten to see her this last year...I can't believe I'm going to see the 3rd Harry Potter movie without her. We've seen all of them together...discussed all the books for hours on end...when the 5th book came out, we finished within half an hour apart from eachother, immediately called eachother, and discussed it for several hours just that night, more following over the next few days. Not that we're only friends for sake of Harry Potter or anything, but we talk about it soooo much that anything Harry Potter related is going to feel really strange without her...along with many other things. I'm doing my world civ/english project (we have to pick a country to visit for 10 days) on India because I was supposed to go with her there the summer after 8th grade...unfortunately, most of the things we had planned don't really work with the project requirements, but a few do, so it'll be fun, despite making me miss her even more...especially when the main reason we became friends was this same project in 6th grade...except we went to another country and it's really bothering me that I can't remember where we went...but anyway, we were partners on that and got to know eachother through it. I'm going to miss having such an "innocent" friend around too...nothing against the others at all, but she's one of my few friends that hasn't been exposed to some of the things the rest of us have...and while it makes it a little harder to relate to eachother, it's nice to be around someone like that sometimes.
Anyway...between that and not having chocolate and my shoulder and neck and head and chest and legs and arms killing me, I've been a little cranky...especially today, since I think I'm in as much pain now as I was before I started the prescription medicine, and now my left arm really hurts again, when I thought that had gotten better. I'm bad enough around my friends, and I'm sorry guys, I know I've snapped at just about all of you lately for something that didn't deserve it...My family's gotten the worst part of it though...My parents are the kind of people you have to tell something several times for them to really get it or remember it sometimes...not something they can help, and I'm usually used to it, but it's bugging me lately, as is pretty much every other tiny detail...It's not like I'm unhappy about things, I'm just...cranky lol. I had to try hard to not blow up at Ashley the other day when she was complaining about how she wasn't allowed to drink soda because of some medicine she was taking...yet she sat there drinking a coke or something...and then got a really bad stomachache. I mean, it wasn't a smart idea, but it didn't mean she should've been lectured by me for it...though I think I decently contained myself. I talked to Matt a while last night and when he brought up a touchy subject...it made me glad that conversation was online. Let's just say I'm still not over the death paranoia.
Mom's going to make an orthopedist appointment for me soon...I want to find out if there's anything else I can do now or even anything later...You know, it'd be very interesting if it was possible for me to have the surgery earlier than we think I can, if I can even have it at all...because sometime in the near-ish future (like, within a year probably) I'm going to have to get my wisdom teeth out...because they're litterally growing in sideways lol; I saw the x-ray and it amused me...but yeah, my brother's did that too, and so do a lot of other people's, so it's not a big deal, but they need to be taken out...and if you've ever seen people for like a week or two after they get their wisdom teeth taken out...Let's just say, I earned the right to call my brother "chipmunk cheeks" for a while O:-) so I'm just trying to imagine myself with giant, puffy cheeks, and an arm...I guess in a sling or something...I don't really know what they'd need to do for it...depending exactly what they'd need to do for the surgery...because I guess if they had to replace part of the joint, they'd have to tear through muscle, but I can't imagine they'd put me in a cast for it because they'd probably want a lot of physical therapy done. I guess I'll find out though...It sounds icky either way, but I want the sugery unless there's another way to fix the problem...The idea of having problems caused by it for the rest of my life scares me a lot...Some math teacher I'd be if I randomly had to wear arm braces for a while, some mom I'd make if it hurt to pick up my kid, or even set him/her on my lap because my legs hurt.
I'm sorry for making some of you guys worried, but when I'm scared I talk about things a lot because I'd rather have them out in the open and have hugs from you guys...but feel free to tell me to shut up if I'm really bothering you when I start talking about things. I love every one of you sooooo much, and I'm sorry for everytime I've yelled at any of you, especially lately...and I'll give you fair warning; it might be a while before I get back to not being so cranky...but sometimes I do it without realizing it, so feel free to tell me I'm being cranky lol, maybe it'll make me stop and think for a second rather than jumping into an argument so easily.
You know...I really want my SAT scores back. I can get them online this Friday... *sits and waits* They don't get mailed until the 24th but apparently u can get them the 14th online for free or on the phone for $8...I've also noticed that I've been really impatient lately lol. (hrm...maybe that's why I miss Corey so much? nah...I always miss him "corazily" hehe <3<3<3) Yay internet^^
I've discovered that sometimes I can learn concepts of Algebra during math quizzes...luckily. Lol I've hardly been able to pay attention in there lately...I'm either almost falling asleep or hurt enough that it's hard to concentrate, or both...Lol the other day my head kept nodding forward and my neck would get a nice stabbing pain that'd wake me up. Anyway...I'm going to try to figure out the stuff we've done this week since I have a test on Wednesday...but I can get a 68.25 or higher and still have a 92.5 without adding the points from the compency test...which we still haven't gotten back (there goes the impatient-ness again...) so I figure I'll live. Too many formulas >< Give me a word problem any day so I can create my own equation...wow I bet I'm one of few people that would say that. Then again, I loved geometry, so go figure.
Tomorrow is mothers day...and the Survivor season finale...so I'm not going to be on after 8 tomorrow lol. Believe it or not, I'm kinda hoping Rob or Amber will win...as cool as Rupert is, Rob and Amber have played the game a lot better (despite the whole "let me make out with you so you won't vote for me" thing hahaha to Anna's profile)...and I'm really currious to see what the "big surprise" is because there's supposed to be something really crazy that happens that no one knows about ahead of time...watch it be like two people get the million dollars...
*yawns* Well, I decided I'd go to bed by 12:30 tonight...and since it's 12:52 maybe I should actually go. G'night!
